I know that you love her, why don't you just tell her that u love her..What are u waiting for?? Her boyfriend now is not around so you just take that chance la...She is aso very intelligent and she can feel that you love her, if u tell maybe she will accept you..although i'm really very sad to see you all together but like everyone said, "when u see ur loved one happy then u will be happy"..but actually i'm not happy at all..i try to avoid u adi but is impossible for me to that......

I may get to see you as often as I like,

But I may not get to hold you in my arms through all the nights,

But deep in my heart,

I truly know,

You're the one that I LOVE,

And can't NEVER let go.

     Kali ini aku teringin sangat-sangat nak tulis dalam Bahasa Melayu.....Aku sendiri pun tidak tahu mengapa..haha..sebenarnya aku ada banyak hal nak tulis tapi tidak pula tahu nak start dari mana...dari hujung kaki ataupun dari akar rambut ya???

     Pada mulanya, aku ingin meluahkan perasaan aku. Terdapat sesetengah perkara telah ditakdirkan dan kita tidak dapat melarikan diri ataupun bersembunyi daripada takdir...Kita tidak dapat menjangkakan apa yang akan berlaku pada keesokkan hari...kita perlu menghargai setiap benda yang kita ada pada hari ini...

     Kalaulah esok tidak menjelma, apakah yang anda akan buat sekarang?? Buat apa-apa sahaja yang anda terfikir hendak buat sekarang...Aku ini mengatakan bahawa aku telah tersalah, tersilap, tak patut jatuh cinta terhadap seseorang yang langsung tidak patut dicintai...apa yang boleh aku buat sekarang kalau sudah terlambat untuk ku mengikis perasaan itu?? aku tidak tahu apa patut aku buat sekarang...aku dah cuba untuk mengelakkan diri daripada dia tapi tak mungkin lagi sebab sekarang semakin rapat dengan dia pula..lagi i nak jauhkan diri daripadanya lagi lah rapat dengan dia...

     Aku berasa amat cemburu sekali bila dia bersama dengan orang yang dia suka..walaupun dia tidak pernah memberitahu yang dia suka padanya tapi aku sangat-sangat confirm yang dia sangat suka pada dia...dia sanggup melakukan apa-apa sahaja demi girl itu...aku dapat merasakan dia juga sanggup mati demi dia...betapa sakitnya hati aku ini..Aku tidak dapat memberitahu sesiapa pun tentang perkara ini..Aku tidak tahu apakah pandangan orang lain terhadap saya jika aku memberitahu tentang perkara ini...betapa susahnya aku untuk menyimpan rahsia ini..

     Aku ingin tahu adakah patut aku memberitahunya apa yang terdapat dalam fikiran aku sekarang??? Jika tersilap cakap maka habislah segala-galanya tapi kalau tak cakap aku akan rasa menyesal jika tiada lagi peluang untuk memberitahunya...Aku dalam dilema sekarang..

When they got problems that time, i try my best to comfort them and support them...i try my best to settle their problems and try to make them happy again..hope that they will forget the saddness...however, when i'm sad and got alot of problems no one come to help me...i'm really suffering a mental problem i guess...i don't know who can i talk to...i really can't find someone that can listen to my problems...i really no need they help me to settle my problems ....i just want them to listen to me..i just want them to become the ears..i just need a shoulder to cry on...but nobody can help me now even my very best friends...i don't know how now....

I feel really very sad right now...I really don't know what had happened to me this few weeks...i feel that my hurt is really, terribly hurt by ***...I don't know why this can happen to me..I already try to avoid ***...I seldom talk to ***...I don't even see her and pretend very cool....I really don't lilke this type of feeling...I really don't want it to happen...I want to have a very normal life..That's all I want...That's all i want..why you can't give me that...I don't want to become ***...please help me!!!!

My fren juz broke up wit her boyfren..from the first time i saw her boyfren that time I already know that he is not a good guy...i don't know why I have the feeling that he is not a good guy...then my fren fren told me about the reason they broke up...they just have been together for not even one month but so I guess the reason they broke up just a stupid reason..ya, I'm right...the reason is the same like the other ( u keep on control me, we are not suitable for each other, we don't have the same thinking)..wat the poor rason that the guy had gave...for me I think that the guy just want to play and not really appreciate the relationship...the worst word i can say that is the guy just want SEX....what the cheap type of guy he is...I think I won't trust guy anymore because of this incident..for me, mostly all the guys just want only that....I don't want to dating and I don't want to find a boyfren also...this is very troublesome and the most important thing tthat is really hurt...Guys cannot be trust anymore...

Still have 19 days I have to go back to UUM to study. Although i have two months break but it still not enough for me . Is just like a two weeks break only although is already two months.. I don't want to go back there..Is just like a hell for me at there and I'm not really happy at there...Is  all my fault to choose there..why i would be so blur when choosing university....i really don't understand myself why because of my friend I choose that university..actually there is nothing wrong with that university juz my own problem only....because i care for her thats why i follow her but now i really very regrets..feel like want to 'long piak' lo..haiz,  i really don't know what to do now juz continue my study to get good result to go oversea...by hook or by cook, i would go oversea..i don't want to stay at this sad place anymore...is really suffering....